Is depressing.

Not because I don’t want to work (I do, though I of course love to laze about), but because  I always get a weird, trembly feeling of pre-rejection. Which makes me balk? Dunno. And if I get rejected I get discouraged and then lose interest which is shameful.

And plus IF I do get this job I’m currently applying for I’d have to use the bus system, which I’ve never really done before and makes me super nervous.

And I now I feel like I’m lending credence to the idea that my generation of Americans are all shiftless, lazy whiners who want shit handed to them on a gold platter.

Which would be nice, to a point, but then I would be Mitt Romney.